80 lang?

My brother and I drove to San Diego this weekend! 7 hours! Practice shot ko sana to. (Kahit di nyo kita!) I was planning to hit 90mph (140+ kmh) with a view pero nagising na si Kuya. Sayang! Next week ulet.

Salty Coffee

He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him.

At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home.."

Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee."

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his
coffee and drank it.

She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?"

He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there."

While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home. Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.

That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, and then they were living the happy life… And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said, "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you—the salty coffee.

Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication!

I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life!

Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."

Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?"

She replied, "It's sweet."

Closing Cycles by Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters

Whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

less than a week to go

With 6 days more, I can't help but think about my life... how I have been during the past year... have I really done something good and something worth celebrating... Can I really tell the world next week, "Hey! Look at me! I am proud of what I have become this year!"

Hay, Blessie!

I know I have been happy this year. What I have experienced during my 28th year is the best ever so far... Been to a lot of places... Had a lot of firsts... Served God to the fullest... Have learned a lot of things, have accepted them as they are and moving on with it... Still, Blessie being Blessie has not really changed much. I am still the same old Blessie I have known for so long. And sometimes, I ask if it's a good thing... Maybe, in a way it is... But I know I wanted more to happen.

Sigh... I still got less than a week to go.

Help me, Lord!

Ganito siguro talaga pag tatanda na ulet...

Filipinos Denigrated on ABC's Desperate Housewives “Can I check those diplomas? Coz I would just like to make sure they are not from some med school in the Philippines.”

I'll try to post the link here. But for the meantime, please trust that I have seen the episode and sign the petition here: http://www.petitiononline.com/FilABC/

--

Dear Kababayan and Allies:

I heard through the grapevine about a remark made on an episode of
"Desperate Housewives" last night. The scene entailed Teri Hatcher's
character (Susan) at a hospital, being told by her gynecologist that
she might be hitting menopause. Susan replied, "Can I just check those
diplomas because I just want to make sure that they are not from some
med school in the Philippines." If you go to abc.com, you watch the
full episode and witness the scene at about 18:50 minutes into the
episode.

This type of derogatory remark is not only unnecessary and hurtful, but
is also unfounded, considering the presence of Filipinos and Filipino
Americans in the health care industry. Filipinos are the second largest
immigrant population in the United States, with many entering the U.S.
and passing their U.S. licensing boards as doctors, nurses, and medical
technicians. In fact, the Philippines produces more U.S. nurses than any
other country in the world. So, to belittle the education, experience,
or value of Filipino Americans in health care is disrespectful and plain
and simply ignorant.

As Filipino Americans, we need to band together to ensure that this type
of hateful message is not allowed to continue on our television and
radio airwaves. Given the recent amounts of media attention that has
been given to Michael Richards (against African Americans), Isaiah
Washington (against gays), and Rosie O'Donnell (against Asian/ Chinese
Americans), it is ridiculous that this type of hateful speech made it
through various screenwriters, the show's producers, the show's actors,
and ABC itself. Yet, this isn't the first time that negative remarks
have been made about the Philippines or Filipinos in the past.
In recent years, we've heard one too many "dogeater" comments by
"comedian" Joan Rivers on the red carpet or in her standup act, and I
believe that it is about time that we stand up for ourselves, so that
this type of hateful speech never happens again.

Please join me in expressing your concern, disappointment, and/or
disgust to the producers of ABC.com. You can sign the petition at
http://www.petition online.com/ FilABC/ or you can reach them directly
abc7@abc.com.

And please feel free to forward this widely to other Filipinos/ Filipino
Americans/ Asian Americans/ and other allies.


Sincerely,


Kevin Nadal,
Filipino Performance Artist/ Activist
knadal@gmail. com

GReATITUDE

It has been a long time since I wrote something... I felt I do not have something to tell. For months (years in fact), I have been asking God to give me something grand... an event that I would really leap for. So far, everything it my life has been ordinary... or so it seems.

Last night, I was sharing with my SFC household the things I have done during this year. And one thing has been made clear as I enumerate what I got right now. I am now working (for real). My nights are pretty much occupied between family and CFC service that I even look forward to my next free time so I could have a massage. It was an opener for me that though what I have been doing in my life has been pretty much the same, when combined (and this is a first time!) - it really is more than my usual.

Lord, I will be forever in gratitude in you for making my life great... And I know it will be even greater (diba, Papa Jesus?)

wanna be gilmore

looking back at my life, i have always attracted to logan(s) and chris(es).
it never turned out good for the gilmore girls...

sigh...



still...

i wanna be a gilmore... but better.

and a lot happier.

the day before Heroes

Finally, the more than a month wait for the last 5 episodes of Heroes' first season is almost over. Yahoo!!!! I got so many questions?!?!

How is the old Mrs. Petrelli involved in the power issue? How come it seemed she doesn't know about it? Does she have powers, too? And Linderman being Nathan's father?! Whoah! Shocker! And Peter.. we all know he's gonna survive Sylar! But how?!?! His head is being cut open! Does this have to do with Hiro traveling to the future? How how?!?! D

Can't wait. Heroes na!!!!

But until then, this will do...

ang pagbabalik

(hanggang kelan kaya?)

ang haba ng panahon na nanahimik
ang tagal na nawala
ilang linggo ding di nagsulat
baket nga ba?
tinatamad.

di naman naging busy
hindi rin nabawasan ang oras sa computer
bigla na lang kinagat ng tamad
baket kaya?
kasi hindi inlab.

haaaay...

ang puso nga naman
ang galing magpaikot ng isip
hayop mamilit gumawa

so, inlab si blessie?
nagsusulat eh

di naman

bigo?

lalong hindi

ay bakit may bago na namang entry?

ewan ko nga ba
di ko rin alam

guess?

baka nananalangin na namang mainlab.

unexpected

ring ring

someone called

i'm still okay

i have
definitely
moved on

I want Men in Trees back!

(on TV and in real life)

I was downloading my favorite shows from the internet when I learned that MEN IN TREES is CANCELED!!!

I got hooked up with this show when I stayed in the States last year. In a nutshell, the hour-long dramedy was about Marin (Anne Heche), a relationship coach who has failed with her own -- on her way to Alaska for a speaking engagement, she found out that her fiancé was cheating on her! Slapped in the face, she ended the wedding plans and retreated to Elmo, Alaska. There she met Jack (James Tupper), a wildlife expert who became her friendly knight. From being just friends, their relationship blossomed and she started rethinking about the men she thought she knew.

One of Marin's thoughts about him is "Friendship between a man and a woman is complicated, especially if they've shared something more. There are times when love can be stronger and even more rewarding if it's built on the foundation of a really great friendship. But wherever it's headed, wherever it's been, being just friends doesn't have to mean settling for something less. Sometimes it can be the brass ring after all."



With all the love and friendship in Men in Trees, it was overall a feel good show. It approaches the "perfect" girls’ angst on love (or the absence of it) satirically.



And like most relationship and relationships-to-be on real life, someone can steal the one you have invested all your emotions with. One of my crying scenes was when Marin was telling Jack "She broke your heart and all I tried to do was fix it" as her final piece on letting go of Jack who is going back to her pregnant (Jack not the Father) ex-fiancé, Lynn.



I remember a quote from Marin saying “Everyone will be remembered, and if that's the case, you have to ask yourself, "How do you want your story to go?" ...How do you want to be remembered?” Sigh... I am gonna miss this show! I hope ABC brings it back. I want this show to be remembered and not canceled!!!! I want Jack and Marin back!!! I actually want Jack for myself!

Ion Detoxication Foot Bath

I first heard of this detox from a friend early 2006. I was intrigued by how she described the toxins coming out of her feet and turn the water into a different color. Last Sunday, my cousin and I were watching television with other friends. And again, I, along with my cousin, was intrigued. Then our other friend told us that her dad was undergoing the foot bath treatment here in Lucena. And instead of the thousand bucks advertised on television, it was only three hundred pesos. Good deal, eh?

So, we decided to go to the "detoxifier" the next day and set an appointment. And to our luck, walk-in clients are charged one hundred peso less as part of their summer promo. Yipee!

I got this excerpt from http://www.fountainofhealth.com/ionfootbath.php. It helps explain how this kind of detoxification happerns.

The Ion detoxification device is a method for creating a bio-charge that is both safe and compatible with living matter. Water is the obvious medium used because up to 80% of the human body is water. Water is an active substance, so when water comes into contact with something, the frequency of what it contacts is integrated into its own frequency structure and thus becomes its signature. When you immerse a body mass into water, the frequency is instantly added to the water as a "memory".

The Ion Foot Bath detoxification accelerates change in the body. Aging and disease states are characterized by a diminishing anabolic capacity and an increasing catabolic capacity. Toxic buildup of cellular waste and debris is the inevitable outcome of these trends. Reversing them through whole body detoxification requires nutritional support, particularly digestive enzymes, reduction of stress hormones, trace minerals and fatty acids, which are involved in the movement and transport of raw materials in the body.

After thirty minutes, the water I am soaked into has turned into brown. This color signifies that my liver is being detoxified. Apparently, this color is usually associated with fat impurities and alcohol.

Ooops...

a pretense

This Sunday, I got to spend my time with a group of children, whose ages range from six to sixteen, living at a center near our village. They were full of energy in all the activities and they wear their big smiles in every picture taken. Watching them was nostalgic, they were happy… until I learned about their life.

• A six-year old girl who has the built of a less than four year old one. She has difficulty in color and shape recognition. Some kids were picking up on her and were making fun of her drawing and coloring.

• Three siblings were simply abandoned at the gate of center. The youngest says she does not love her other sister and she is serious about it.

• Most of the kids do not know when they were born so they celebrate their birthdays at the time the center took them in. With this, most of the kids’ ages are just estimates.

• Some kids are battered by their parents. Most have been raped by their own uncles. Some have been raped and battered as well.

Sigh. I wish this kids have my the same life I have…

And they are just kids… kids who are supposed to be the ones whose only worries are what games to play and will they like the food their parents will be giving them for supper. Instead, they get to confront adult problems -- Dilemmas which are so much bigger than mine. And they get live with it. And they get by.

My life as a kid has been full of sleeping, eating and playing all day. Happy days with no worries! Today has been not that different, except working and studying has been added and sleeping has been lessened for play to happen at night. Happy days with a few worries! I would settle for that!

a draft of my love letter

For the longest time, I wanted myself to fall madly in love again. I want to experience again the kind of love that creates butterflies in my stomach and tingles in my spine. I want my tan cheeks to blush and my body to flinch every time I remember him.. I want my mouth to stop eating even when I am so hungry simply because he's there... I want to see Blessie in love with someone and not with the idea of having someone.

This happens…

… somewhat.

For the longest time, I wanted to be in love and be loved back. I want to feel like someone's princess again... a girl so special being loved by that equally special someone. A someone who makes me laugh and cry at the same time. That someone who would not dare leave me and tries to be with me longer than forever. Someone who keeps his promises.

Sigh…

For the longest time, I told myself I will meet him soon. But it has been never been soon so far. A lot of waiting, preparing and praying has happened already. And I sometimes grew tired of that. But I know I just have to keep on preparing and praying harder because I want that someone to be with me sooner...

Please, Lord!

For the longest time, I have created myself a possibility for me and my life the possibility of being a princess to my prince. I do not know who he is yet. But I know he is just there looking for me as well. And I will know who he is soon.

For the longest time, I have been preparing for him to come into my life. I know I am still in the process of preparing myself for him but I do hope the preparations I did are enough to meet him already.

Or do I still have to work on my love handles before we meet?

For the longest time, I do hope we are already in the same block. In our separate sides, we are walking closer towards the corner... towards each other.

For the longest time, Lord. I know You are guiding us. And I know we are just a few steps away from each other.

Lord, help us find each other now, please.

Way Back into Love

by Hugh and Drew
(Music and Lyrics)



I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Points to Ponder

Panooring ang eksenang ito kung saan hindi papalya na mapapaisip ka.



Yoon nga lang. Ang kelangan mong isipin ay kung paano ka titigil pagtawa.

Saging lang ang may puso!!!

Someday

by Nina

yummy yummy

May Krispy Kreme na sa The Fort!!!!


Panahon ng kumain ng calories at magpataba!!!

Las Vegas

Thank you guys for all the fun and laughter shared in Vegas...
It was one memory that will forever be cherished.
Hmwah!

nothing really

i know i would really like to write about something

that something, i cannot think of

hmmm...

pressure!

hay!

wala na lang!

RP - SG - KL Swing

THREE COUNTRIES in TWELVE HOURS

talo ko pa ang amazing race nito!

thanks for an adventure-filled week, mitzikay!

to see some pictures, click the link below

http://rockyou.com/viewslideshow.php?instanceid=12268603&refid=12268603

Confessions, not quite

I got my heart broken two years in a row (ha?!?! ‘diba last year lang?) and I think I am getting better in mending (not that I am asking for another one, papa jesus).

How?

When Mr. Big left Carrie at the end of Sex and the City's first season, she said “After he left, I cried for a week. And then I realized I do have FAITH. Faith in myself -- Faith that I would one day meet someone who would be sure that I was the one”. Thank God for SATC's quotable quotes, it really helped me move on. (hehe) Carrie was right as usual. We just have to trust that from the pain, something good (hopefully someone) would come out of it.

As for me, I learned to see that the pain I experienced formed me to love THE ONE better – that the next relationship will be a lot better than the previous. I, now, see that I have to be confident in loving and not to hesitate showing it as long as he is happy and I am in my right mind.

For the past months, my heart has been in a monthly cycle. As in parang may period at kasabay talaga. Okay for so many weeks, then dramatista the next day. At first, I thought a verbal closure will end these heart lapses and hopefully turn a ‘wrecked super friendship in denial’ into what it used to be – a friendship not worthy of bearing any risk of impairing. But as the drama queen suffers a blow, frustration sinks in and apathy later resides. From then, I said that as long as I do not see him, I will be okay. And I have been. Yet, I saw him unexpectedly and my heart beat more than usual. Surprisingly, when he nodded hi, I realized that my world didn't stop. We talked a little bit and we parted. Still, there were my ‘should I text him’ moments, ‘sayang alang closure’ thoughts and ‘piso texts’ for prayers of moving on. And when I woke up, God granted my wish. I am really all right. And I hope I will continuously be from now on. I’ll see when my period comes (hehe!).

Nga pala, ‘pag tinanong nyo ko tungkol sa blog na to – deny ko na blog ko to!

yesterday's sigh

The last week of October was supposed to be my gimmick-pack week. Enchanted Kingdom (which for now they saw was better than the Chinese Disneyland), Singapore and Kuala Lumpur. Okay naman syang ipagpalit sa napakadaming meetings, diba?! I'm sure most would agree.

But no, pag career ang katapat! Diba, mitzikay?! hehe!
Oh well! God has his plans for doing so.

Till february, KL shoes(es).

Fairy Tales or Not

Ewan ko nga ba kung san ako mas nabigla... a 13-foot Burmese python eating a 6-foot American alligator at a park at Florida or Katie Holmes being pregnant for 6 months!?! Sa tingin nyo?!I don't know have any grudge with Katie Holmes. 'Di kami close. But I liked her during the first few seasons at Dawson's Creek. I was even a fan of the Pacey-Joey loveteam. But seriously, I had never thought that the whirl wind romance between the her and Tom Cruise would result to a baby in 3 months. But still, being pregnant the first month they were dating?!?!!? Maybe fairy tales do come true... at least for the girl on the creek. Yun nga lang... Sana the alligator the snake apparently swallowed really turned out like a dream meal that could lasted him for the week. It turned out to be his last supper. Lessons learned for both: "Huwag matakaw!"

Tawa na lang tayo

Kung bakit nga naman ang hilig nating mga Pilino na ngumiti at tumawa. Kahit puno na ng problema ang bayan, todo pa rin sa pagpapatawa... Halimbawa na lang ang infamous text message ngayon na "Cory cannot tell a lie. Gloria cannot tell the truth. Erap doesn't know the difference." Nakakalungkot lang isipin na puro pagtawa ang sagot natin sa mga problema kasi sanay na tayo. Sanay na tayo sa problema... Sanay na sa kahirapan ng bansa. Sanay na tayong maumay sa pagpilit na may pag-asa pa. Sanay na tayo sa mga gawain ng lideratong mas malaki sana ang magagawa para guminhawa ang Pilipino. Sanay na tayong walang kasagutan ang mga problemang matagal ng dinadala. Hay naku! Buti na lang at nandiyan si Miriam... mas napapadali ang pagtawa. Bwahahaha!

A car that fits the Adormeos

Finally, a car that could seat all members of my family. Kuya and Daddy at the front, my 3 pamangkins and I at the back and mommy and Ate Ana with the baby in the middle. Ooopsss... Pano na ang gamit namin... ang stroller?! hmmmm... Bahala na magkasya! :D

Animal-Packed Sunday

We were just supposed to accompany my dad at an auction in Subic. We ended up park-hopping. The animals, particularly the sea lions, dolphins, whales and tigers, were a sight, especially for my 2 pamangkins. It has been a Sunday adventure-pack for the Adormeo family.

BUTTERFLY GARDEN

ZOOBIC SAFARI

OCEAN ADVENTURE




Mauulet to! Sana libre pa din ko ng daddy ko!

AwakenED

(mas awakening talaga to!)

Naghahanap ko ng pagkain.
Biglang may kumaluskos!
Oh my!
May bubuwits sa kitchen namin!

Kelangan ko ng defense strategy
Fly Paper to the rescue!!!
'Di lang panglamok, pangdaga pa!

Alas!
In place na!
Aaaaaaaah! (tili ni blesilda!)
Binangga ng daga yung paa ko.

Oh my!
Marunong din silang dumepensa!

Awaken

Last week was my toxic swish week. The only time I take breaks swishing was during meetings, eating and TV time and my 6-hour sleep. It was really brain crunching... I have to get my creative juices out... And I miss doing that for the one thing I used to love doing... serving CFC community.

September 17 was SFC Global One. Together with all SFCs having simultaneous the 150 in 1 Event, we prayed for unity and fire for 153 CFC countries. For quezon on that night, God answered a different call. Yes, it answered unity and fire. But not for other areas. We felt our own need for God and for the province.

The praisefest (for me lang) was not that heart thumping. Being conscious all the time for the projected lyrics the band will be playing(to which iba sa binigay nila sa 'king sequence!), really destructed me. 1am (on September 18th) was supposed to be party time and I thought I will be leaving the event drier than before. But, Tanty came to me asking if Jenny could share. As a background, Jenny has the gift of prophecy. As in everytime we really pray, walang mintas to... puro messages ni God. And everytime, I listen. Afterwards, I cry and ask God for forgiveness. God's message through Jenny was clear and consistent. For years we have been together, it always has been.

He loves us. It really pinched His heart to let His Son die for our salvation. But what hurts even more was when we don't seem to appreciate and love Him still.

At this point, many were crying. Kasama ako dun.

God adds that he notices our emotional cries during His messages. He feels that we want Him during those time. But after that, nobody cares again. We still ended up doing nothing . And that makes Him more sad 'cause when he comes in 10 years, He wants to save us and not give us pain. He pleads for our love. And that love consists action.

Lord... Sorry...

Sabi nga sa 'kin ni Tanty, a lot of destructions will come into mind during the prayer... but for people to feel God's presence during that prayer doesn't come first from the people around you, it starts within oneself... "kung ayaw nila, magpe-praisefest na lang ko ng sarili ko." And that struck me. Kung ayaw nyo magserve, eh di magseserve pa din ako.

Lord... Help me do something for Your greater glory.

Ever After

Eric's Beach Mix
Singer: Bonnie Bailey
Album: Hed Kandi's Beach House 04.04

Three years ago my journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark
Just knowing with conviction from the start
The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godly
Yet I fell hard for your imperfections

chorus
And now we’re slightly weathered, we’re slightly worn
Our hands grip together eye to eye through the storm yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeah
Coz life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t no current in this river we can’t ride
I still believe in ever after with you
Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like we’re floating when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine

Emotions volcanic eruptions
We both still care so we’re still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you I want to make it right

chorus

You are my twisted sunshine
You are my twisted sunshine

chorus

Sunrays and Saturdays

Open the window
Let the sunset in
If only for the last time
Let me see you smile again

I'll take my records
You can have your books
I'm sorry I never read them
But it says so much about us

Always trying
To make love out of care
The perfect recipe
But something wasn't there

Chorus:
And I wish you
Sunrays and Saturdays
Perfect starry nights
Sweet dreams and moonbeams
And a love that's warm and bright

Sunrays and Saturdays
Friendship strong and true
Oceans of blue and a room with a view
To live the life you choose

You'll write me letters
I'll call you on the on the phone
A wire away from touching
And never quite alone

We'll get to know ourselves again
And we'll heal our hearts
It's not that we're bad together
We're just better off apart

Always trying
To have one and one make two
And even though it never worked
I still feel love for you

sentiments ulet

.
Imagine
... swimming with 50 dolphins at Bohol
... watching the sun set at Boracay
... battling the waves at Siargao
... getting lost and being rescued at Sagada
... snorkeling at camiguin
... being afraid while caving at Palawan

Saraaap!!!

I'll be travelling alone...

Saraap?!?
haaaay...
nakaka-emote!

If You Forget Me

Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Reliving the rapids two months after...

... kahit pirated lang!

Once a Kalilayan, always a Kalilayan...

One of the happy shots during UPK's 30th Anniversary Party. With me, blesi97A, are the batches from '95-'99.

kami!
bubbles (manuno ka katuturo!)
sheryl (nauto ka ni bubbles!)
maya (ngiti ka lang habang dadaganan ng bf mo ang ex mo!)
blesi (ang ganda mo!)
michael (sa taas yung tinuturo ni bubbles!)
alexis (pa-girl ang smile!)
suzette (pademure si ma'am)
nicole (anong nangyayari sa kamay mo? hawaiian dance ba?)
buni (happy mo ah, gawa ba ng kalapit mo?!)
thea (pasimpleng nauto ni bubbles)
baban (close-up smile ito!)

kalibogs(?!) namin...
gift (pano ka rerespetohin, engr?!)
melvir (sino ang kaligel sa nyo?)
galord (ang longkot mo, baket?!)
uda (ngiti ka lang habang dadaganan mo ang ex ni gf!)
sherwin (pas is pas!)
dex (nadamay ka tuloy sa hidwaang... may nakaraan ba kayo ni m?)
tiger (pinipigilan mo ba si uda o hinihipuan?)
ernest (naka first day funk ka ba?)
jape (if only...)

I'll be Okay

Amanda Marshall
(My Best Friend's Wedding)

It's time to let you go
It's time to say goodbye
There's no more excuses
No more tears to cry
There's been so many changes
I was so confused
All along you were the one
All the time I never knew

I want you to be happy
You're my best friend
But it's so hard to let you go now
All that could have been
I'll always have the memories
She'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing
Just when you don't want it to

Chorus
Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay

Life passes so quickly
You gotta take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters
You'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching
For what was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won't be fair

chorus

I won't give up, I won't give in
I can't recreate what just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin

chorus

I can't hold on forever baby
I'll be okay

Wisdom from "Sex and the City"

... a few thoughts from Carrie, Samantha, Miranda & Charlotte

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Don't force an attraction.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man
before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends
because the man was not treating you as you deserve.
Then, heck, no you can't "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Have faith in God regarding your relationship,
but don't let faith make you stupid.
God does things decent and in order.

Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship,
take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable.
Do you really want to be with a man like that?

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll
be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.

Avoid men who got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
why would he treat you any differently?

You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

Always put yourself and your happiness first.

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.

Be honest and upfront.

Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

Don't fall for the "I'm confused role".
Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out
(but don't wait for him, move on).

If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you,
watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

Don't let him place rules on you
that he is not willing to follow himself --double-standard.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more, nothing less.

Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!

Don't compete with other woman,
but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.

If you think he is cheating, he probably is.
Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, leave him.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.

Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

To use painful hard-won wisdom --'get it right' the next time.

Know that you deserve to be the number one person
in the life of the number one person in your life.

Love is a verb.

Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying
to make someone unavailable, available,
someone ungiving, giving,
and someone unloving, loving.

All men are NOT dogs.

If you don't love yourself...you can't love anyone else.

You cannot mend someone else's broken heart.

You need time to heal between relationships...
There is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...
A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...
Look for someone complementary... not supplementary.

Dating is fun...
Even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Never become your man's "therapist".

When actions and words conflict, believe the actions.
Respond to the actions.

A real healthy relationship requires two people.
One person can end it.
But it takes two to make it work.

Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving type"
... when a man loves you
there is nothing in this world (within reason)
that he wouldn't do for you.

Make him miss you sometimes...
when a man always know where you are,
and you're always readily available to him,
he takes you forgranted.

Give him his space...
let him go out with his boys,
don't pressure him to spend time with you,
you can't force a man to hang out with you.

Never let a man know everything.
He will use it against you later.

Never believe you have the perfect guy and he is so innocent.

Never spoil your man;
Let him spoil you.

When it's time to let go; let go.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Compatibility in terms of educational attainment, values, beliefs, personal and career goals, and socio economic status, are important.

Never date a guy who wears colored contacts.

hope in our policemen

Last August 5-7, I was able to attend the SFC Luzon Leaders' Conference at Subic Bay. Within those 3 days, there were 2 instances wherein a PNPA student made me shed tears. The reasons were neither the typical broken heart issue, nor the kotong matter.

There were around 50 PNPAs in the conference. All of them SFCs from Cavite. It was pure joy seeing them in their police uniform sang as a choir during the mass. It was even tear jerking to hear them say, "We wanted to assure you that you can count on your future policemen. We will serve as your protectors. The academy, now, prioritizes spiritual growth as well. There is hope for the police. I see that because we have the Lord within us."

Comment sa picture: Oh diba, pati ang mga future pulis natin, nagpapicture din sa stage!

TRIP

MAHIRAP 'pag ginagabi sa byahe... lalo na't solo ka.

Madalas nakakapaisip
... na kahit anong dumating basta dun din ang bagsak, ayos na!
... na kahit sabit lang, papatulan na!

Kahit mahirap, kahit nakakawala ng poise.
Ang mahalaga, umaandar... kumikibo,

Sa lalong pagdilim,
mas tumitindi ang pag-iisip.

Delikado na...
Sa dami ng sabit, baka di ko na kayaning kumapit ng mahigpit.
Sa pagsiksik, baka ma-snatch ang wallet.
Sa kadiliman ng paligid, baka di ko na makita na iba pala signage.

Haaaayyy...
kung magkataon, akala ko'y dun din ang punta...
yun pala mas mapapasama pa.
Haaaayyy talaga...

Pagod na ko maghanap ng jeep.
Ayoko na ding umasa muna na yung ika-10 sasakyan ay hindi ko na kelangang sumiksik.

Makakauwi pa naman ako diba?

Hmmm...

Lipat na lang ko pwesto...

Dito mas maliwanag...

Taxi!!!

Malamig...
Mas comfortable...
Mas mahal nga lang...
Pero worth it naman kasi solo ko lang at sigurado kong may pupuntahan.

Tita Rina's Famous Garlic Chicken

Ingredients:
chicken pieces
breading
Oil

Sauce:
chopped garlic
Sugar
Soy Sauce

Directions:
Apply breading to the chicken and deep fry. Mix soy sauce, garlic and sugar. Bring to boil. Dip fried chicken in the sauce.

---
that's it pancit! But still, I would never be able to perfect this recipe... haaayy... Iba talaga ang tita!

Surviving the rapids

White river rafting is definitely a must for all active persons. It was totally a rock smashing, adrenalin rushing experience. With all the bruises and body aches I had, the paddling was all worth it.

The photo was taken July 3, 2005 after the Dead Carabao rapids (a level 4) at Chico River, Kalinga-Apayao. We survived it!!!!

All I Need

(Jack Wagner)

Kissing you is not what I had planned

And now I'm not so sure just where I stand

I wasn't looking for true love

But now you're looking at me

You're the only one I can think of

You're the only one I see

All I need

Is just a little more time

To be sure what I feel

Is it all in my mind

Cause it seems so hard to believe

That you're all I need

Yes it's true we've all been hurt before

But it doesn't seem to matter anymore

It may be a chance we're taking

But it always comes to this

If this isn't love we're making

Then I don't know what it is

All I needIs just a little more time

To be sure what I feel

Is it all in my mind

Cause it seems so hard to believe

Ahhhh

You're all I need

Oooooh ahhhh

fretting December

Once in a lifetime,

you will meet someone that you truly like.

You hope to be with him forever to see the sun rising.

But have you ever wondered,

"what if that sun never rose for him again",

would you ever consider me?

hate ko 'to!

nangyari na ba 'to sa nyo?!

ilang gabi na kayong di makatulog...
super friend nyo na ang panyo?
ang hirap kumain!
ang hirap mag-isip!!!
ala kang magawa!!

ayoko ng ganitong feeling...
sana gumaleng na sipon ko!

Sentiments

Kung ngayon, pabarya barya lang ang abot ko... Alam ko (soon!), God will give me more than what I wanted... sa December...

Wedding Shots

When weddings turn out to be not the way the bride pictures it, her bridemaid (me) tends to entertain herself with taking shots with friends! Thanks, te mimi and ikoy!

Hands

I gave GK a chance...

For 3 days,
I embraced the work...

I held the roller brush.
We painted... washed them...
applied muriatic acid... washed them again...
(picture naman)

We mixed cement with sand
... carried those hollow blocks
(click click)

We dug for the posong negro,
... transfered the soil to each house's floor
(lots of clicks)

For those 3 days...
a lot of fat came out of my body...
(hindi pa din ko sexy)

Within those 3 days,
I made my relationships stronger
... with a friend
... with old friends
... with new friends
... with God.

I have been so blessed.

Because I have these hands
that touched the hearts of others

But mostly because
they have hands that touched not only my heart
... my soul.

virgin

i used to write news stories for my high school paper...
i used to write literary works as well...

looking back, i have never been a real writer...
i don't write what's on my mind.
i don't play with my words.
i hate doing my college papers.
i have forgotten most of my grammar learning.
i never had a pen that lasted for a week...
and it is not because i ran out of ink,
i usually loose it on the fifth day.

hmmm....

so what am i thinking creating this blog?!?!?

i really don't know...

... to be in?
... someone forced me to do so?!

NADA!

hmmm....

... an attempt to blog?

... that maybe after my hundredth posting i can say that I have been a writer?

still, i don't know...